February Faultlines

Everything is changing around me again and I feel once more completely at sea with no means of propulsion. I feel the winter closing in on me, trap[ping me into a well of self-doubt and self-pity. I feel everything I loved about my job slipping out of my grasp as my responsibilities change. I feel the darkness of the day heavy on my shoulders. I feel the pain where the metal meets my bones, and for no reason at all... I feel alone. I feel distant from everyone and everything. I don't feel grounded in my surroundings or my job or my home or my life. And there really isn't a damn thing I can do but suck it up and take it.